TWO POEMS

animals on the veldt

yesterday i felt completely neutral while trudging through snow

waiting for you to get home and thinking about will ferrell

i looked at will ferrell's wikipedia page and felt calm

will ferrell is in his mid to late 40s, i think, i can't remember anymore

everything is slipping away, slowly

i think about explaining how i feel to you

i think about how i am thinking about how to explain how i feel instead of thinking about how i feel or thinking about why i feel the way that i feel or how it feels strange to feel unsure about how you are feeling

i feel only very slightly depressed

i get to your house and i feel manic as soon as you kiss me

i feel like i want to say every word in the english language to you

in alphabetical order or maybe in an arbitrary order that i will decide on spontaneously

i want to say words like this:

"snooze"

"alligator"

"umbrella"

i also want to say these words to you:

"kiss"

"skin"

"yearning"

i leave in the morning, groggy

i left my sweater in your room

please keep it safe while i am gone

body heat

i wake up at 12pm and feels glued to her bed

she is leaving to get a tattoo and she says "it's okay"

i thinks "it's okay" and dream about the internet

i wake up at 1:30pm and read for two hours and listen to my former best friend's band

i think about calling and saying "why don't you like me anymore"

it seems too overwhelming

she comes back and we lie in her bed

we stare at lists on the internet and look at twitter 

we go to a party and i talk to a girl who tells me that she has had two jobs in her life

she describes her current job as a "curse" and describes daft punk as "some next level shit"

i want to be saved

i snort adderall in a bathroom with peter
i snort ritalin in a bathroom with her
she snorts adderall in a bathroom with kyle 

someone puts on r kelly and we both wipe our noses 

we decide to leave and discuss how cold the train station will probably be

we agree that it will probably be "pretty fucking cold"

we get to the train station and it is pretty fucking cold

we are both sniffling because of the cold, and the drugs

and because maybe we are both getting sick 

getting a cold at the same time seems romantic to me

we get back to her room and have decently good sex

i see her smile in the dark as i get up to get a glass of water

i lie down and push my arm underneath her neck

we both snore all night